the agony of waiting
I don’t care about the distance because it’s nothing compared to what we have. I hold you closest to me too, even though we’re many oceans apart. I hope you understand why I’m feeling so lonely right now. I didn’t mean to say those words, or to hurt you. You know that’s the last thing I would want to happen. I guess it’s just the waiting part, that causes my agony, it seems so endless, and you’re taking too long. sometimes it’s just too frustrating but you know that I’m here waiting.
How long has it been since you left? Almost four years. Can you imagine how much time has elapsed that we’re not together? Even if we talk almost every single day, it doesn’t change the fact that you’re there and I’m here. When I think about it, it makes me feel so weak. I always ask myself, how much longer can i endure? When will the waiting ever end?
You know that of all things, I hate having to wait. But you’ve changed that, you’ve changed it to the extreme level possible. I couldn’t do anything but give it all the patience that I’ve got left… All for the hope of what we had, have, and will have. The endless walks on the beach, the adventures, and the wonderful feeling of being together once again.
So much time and tears have been wasted. Sometimes, I want to give up and just move on. I’ve tried too many times, yet I always fail.
…coz you said you’ll be home soon, and I’m holding on to that promise with my dear life. Just don’t make me wait longer, coz I’m just an inch away from running out of patience.
Two months more to go… I’ve waited long enough, but how come the days seem much longer now and the waiting even harder?
It’s been such a long time that I’ve been living this life in the dark, and now that you’ve given me the hope of dawn… I can’t help but long for the day the sun will rise again.
Nov 28th, 2007 at 10:23 pm
Hang in there bud. I have a friend who’s been in a long distance rel for four years now. they seem happy naman. Nga pala, you might wanna join ronito ronita, check mo na lang sa site ko.
Nov 28th, 2007 at 10:25 pm
glad they’re happy and together!
Nov 29th, 2007 at 11:00 pm
lex, davao pa ko run…absernt noon sa bloging. Thanks for droping by pre… sa monday na sad ko magconcentrate dinhi… babushh
Nov 30th, 2007 at 12:33 am
hi lex, hmmmm inlove ang lolo oiii!!hehheeh..bitaw, i really like your writing and I can also relate to it..I’m also into a long distance rel and waiting is indeed an agony…..pero sagdi lng coz I always remember the line in a song (thought to us by our religion teacher) and here it goes : “True love waits. There is pain when true love waits, but the joy is great when we are blessed by God”.
Happy weekend.
Nov 30th, 2007 at 2:12 am
walang mahirap sa dalawang pusong tunay na nagmamahalan.
Nov 30th, 2007 at 2:54 am
awwww….
hey. don’t give up, okay?
Nov 30th, 2007 at 3:09 am
aww witchy pasalubong mangosteen!!!!
Nov 30th, 2007 at 3:11 am
Julai - believe nga ako sa inyo eh. tibay nyo! hehehe more power!
rich - waaahh mukhang talking from experience ah!
Seth - yeah…
Nov 30th, 2007 at 7:41 am
aww thats so sweet!
Nov 30th, 2007 at 8:17 am
frenzy -
thanks. and… anotehr thank you for stopping by and taking time to read.
Feb 24th, 2008 at 11:34 am
What a sad story to read. I just wish miracle would happen and when you wake up in the next early morning, the one that you are longing to see would be by your site.
Feb 24th, 2008 at 6:42 pm
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
Feb 25th, 2008 at 9:06 am
it’s that much better when you’re together again. Protect that flame, don’t blow it out in desperation.
Keep living though, move on daily. Good luck!
Feb 26th, 2008 at 6:58 pm
wow, … however, at times, the silence is the best reply. I perfectly understand your situation, but is there anything to comment?
I rejoice at the strength of your emotions.
You are worthy the love indeed. That’s the great news out if itself in the world where the indifference to other became the dominant already, unfortunately.
Jun 13th, 2008 at 9:33 am
Hi Lex, thanks so much for ur interest in the RHD! Unfortunately, we have already closed membership more than a month back!
If you like, we can exchange links instead. You have a nice blog!